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asstarscollide @ 2006-03-10T10:03:00

2006-03-10T15:04:38Z

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asstarscollide @ 2005-07-31T21:21:00

2005-08-01T01:31:35Z

i miss everyone. its very surreal that i wont be going back to high school in a couple days. i wish i didnt hate high school so much and gave it a chance. i wish i would had lived more for Christ in the beginning maybe i could have saved a couple friends from what they are going through right now. i know thats not important to alot of them but its important to me.

things im going to miss about highschool:

sharing a locker with Hiram
Nursing class
shane
cristina
kim
lauren
jerilee
amber
john& ashley
prayer circles in the middle of the hall with megan!!!
ms miller and the dark room
lunchroom jokes
my batman lunch box
FRANK!
devin

yea ill stop here its so crazy but im excited about college and my life with justin and to see what God will do with me where he will take me and my new relationships. yay!

asstarscollide @ 2005-03-24T08:13:00

2005-03-24T13:14:27Z

i desperatly need a ride to copeland and acceptance tonight!!! if u are willing to help me in my ordeal please feel free to give me a ring at 748-5065

asstarscollide @ 2005-02-21T19:46:00

2005-02-22T00:56:37Z

this weekend was the best!!!
here are some pics from

sorry girls u guys arent in any of these ones but wait till i get that film developed.
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asstarscollide @ 2005-02-19T16:50:00

2005-02-19T21:50:58Z

He gave me a ring!! last night was the best night. and tomorrow is going to be more fun!

asstarscollide @ 2005-02-18T21:13:00

2005-02-19T02:20:28Z

pics from today

angelic looking john

i have the best friends.

asstarscollide @ 2005-02-18T20:01:00

2005-02-19T01:02:22Z

happy birthday to me!!!!!!!! i have the greatest friends ever..
i love you guys. thanks you Lord for all that you have blessed me with these 18 years.

asstarscollide @ 2005-02-14T16:02:00

2005-02-14T21:07:20Z

ok so my mom said she is going to take me to get a tattoo for my birthday!! yay
so i need some feedback. what do you guys think i should get

its going to face down on my torso.

asstarscollide @ 2005-02-07T13:52:00

2005-02-07T18:57:33Z

so i went home sick today. and slept. and had a horrible realistic dream. iwas sick in bed alone like i was and then i hear people come in. welli ried to get up but my body wouldnt move at all. i couldnt move anything or say anything. theni woke up and i was screaming something and my head turning side to side. it was weird now i cant sleep anymore.

friday night was fun. limpia mi colito shane.

im jusy happy right now. its perfect. thanks be to God.

asstarscollide @ 2005-02-03T20:58:00

2005-02-04T01:59:24Z

As I sit here and think
About all that You’ve done
About how You gave me Your one and only Son
And I’m trying to fathom
All that You are, but so far, Lord
You’re so beyond me
I fall down in reverence
And I fall down in fear
And I’m asking You, Lord, won’t You please draw near
Won’t You open my eyes
So that I can see
The way that You are working in me
All I need is Your love
To come and fill this heart of mine
My heart is a desert that has gone dry
And I need Your love to carry me bye, bye, bye, bye, bye
To carry me bye, bye, bye, bye, bye
To carry me bye
And I lay down my life
And I put it before You
All that I am is in Your hands
And I’m not going to question, why You’re so faithful
Why that You give me the blessing that You have
Let the glory be known, let the glory be shown
Lift You up unto the throne
You are my God, You are my King
To You I give, I give You everything
All that I need is Your love, my God

shawn mcdonald is coming to our youth group. everyone should come see him. he is amazing.

asstarscollide @ 2005-01-31T20:48:00

2005-02-01T01:54:04Z

bet i tricked u. eh. what where u expecting. sicko.

asstarscollide @ 2005-01-17T18:39:00

2005-01-17T23:55:15Z

hey everyone. so this weekend has been one of the best. for a while i was really doubting our relationship and my feelings for you but after this weekend it feels so fresh and really darn good to be with you still. first he took me to borders and lifeway when i was feeling so down about homelife and he bought me a bible. a really cool on one that has a guide to being a leader. then he took me to starbucks and we drank coffee. it was cold out and it was so perfect. he told his best friend wonderful things about me that he wouldnt admit about anyone. he calls me his princess now and thats how i feel. sat we went to ybor and he bought me dinner and i got a beenie. it was so cold but so nice. sunday was kinda boring work then the mall with him for a little while before the show. today a bunch of kids from youth went over to juan and georges and we had a foose ball tournament. it was so much fun. these kids are so amazing. God has blessed us with an amazing group of friends and youth ministry. i wish everyone could be like us. we are all so happy its incredible.

so yea i decided on trying to move out for college. i want to have the college experiance with out being smothered. i know its going to be hard but i know my sister is going to move out and i cant just leave her side. im the only one that still has faith in her and i believe that i will rub off on her soon God has already cracked her He just needs to break through now.

And all of Gods Children said AMen

the reason i live

2005-01-11T00:25:17Z

Happy Birthday Justin!!!!!! aw my baby is 19! his party went pretty good. thanks to all that came and thanks to Desi for the Tilly and The Wall Cd.

so i was thinking about running for homecomming court. just bcithink idbemadat myself if i never tried anything outrageous in high school. SOmeone should definantly run with me. yea u know u want to... cristina.

lance is comming over thursday. i cant wait.

i wish more of my friends went to church with me. i know they would enjoy it. i dont nderstand why they cant give themselves up to Jesus already. why fight it. your life will be so much more better and filled with joy when you accept him into your heart. i cant even explain what hes done for me. i am so happy kim goes. ask her i bet she will tell you that her life gets better everyday. dont be afraid. if you want to know Him ask someone ask me to take you on wednesdays to youth id be more than happy to.

yeah...........

asstarscollide @ 2005-01-06T16:02:00

2005-01-06T21:09:50Z

well i havent updated in forever. classes suck. they are so boring. why am i still in high school time to move on. church was so awesome last night. i wish more of my friends would go. ive come to the conclusion that i stay home alot. i guess i avoid interaction with people alot. im throwing justin a surprise birthday party. yea he wont read this. its sunday let me know if your interested.

i feel so unoriginal. i feel like theres nothing special about me. i want to be original. unique. i want to be loved by everyone...

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asstarscollide @ 2004-12-18T21:26:00

2004-12-19T02:28:22Z

ive been so out of it lately. cristina i miss u i felt like i havent seen u in forever. ive beengetting to school late. hiram thanks for visiting me it made me smile. eh. my parents want me to quite me jobs. they say im too stressed and my grades are suffering. blah. it doesnt feel like Christmas.

ok im done

asstarscollide @ 2004-12-08T20:52:00

2004-12-09T02:00:22Z

Things are fixed. everyhting is cool now. i even worked things out with my parents. they even want lance to come over for dinner sunday night so they can meet him. i hope things will go ok. i think we all comprimised some things. my heart is at ease thank you God. its so wierd everytime i feel like i need an answer i just pic a random page in the bible and God speaks to me. its great. i didnt go to yout htoday bc i had to talk to my parents but i hope everyone that said they would be there.. nick justin is really there. i dont want to worry about silly stuff anymore God should be my main focus not what justin is up to or jealousy thats just the devil trying to bring me down as kanye west would say JEsus walks with me.

God you have set my heart at ease.

asstarscollide @ 2004-12-06T16:30:00

2004-12-06T22:06:25Z

i hate the akward silence and the shameful glances. i hate that u wont look at me i hate feeling anger towards u. why cant we just fix it. we only have a little time left before high school is over with and we are going to spend it like this. why cant u hang out with him with me why alone. it makes me uncomfortable and feeling left out.i wish u could understand me. i wish i could tell u f ace to face without my words getting all jumbled up. i am in a horrible postion and both of u are killing me. im not letting "high school love" ruin our friendship. and maybe u think thats what it is but ur not in the position to say that thats all it is. i means nothing to u bc your not in love and u dont understand. u have liked him and those feelings can easily come again when u spend time with him. im trying to avoid any future situations kim. not that i dont trust u too thats not even a issue. if only u could try and see my side. i see yours and ill comprise why isnt ok for u guys to hang out with me. we just started hanging out again. this is the same exact issue we fought about when me and justin started dating. u and him would hang out and again i was stuck at home wondering whats going on. but the past is the past and im trying to just let that go and at the same time avoid future drama. do u get where i am coming from at all. id ont want to act all silly and ignore eachother lets just fix it and move on. things were going great before this happened. we started hanging out. when u and jo were friends i honestly hated it. ask cristina. i hated the person u were turning into. i was jealous. she stole my best friend. and finally i get her back and now my boyfriend is stealing her love away from me. kim i miss us. i miss u and i when u use to ride ur scooter over to my house every weekend and go swimming and u would flirt with my bro. do u remember that. those were the happiest times. we all three can have happy times. do u see that justin is all i really have sometimes. what am i going to do when u two are hanging out. i cant hang out with my best friend bc she happens to be with my boyfriend. do u see? its not just one thing its a mixture of things. but thats how i feel i cant help that and everyone says i over react buy hey thats just me. please understand me. ive always noticed u have had more guy friends than girls and sometimes those gys have jealous girl friends and u know it. caugh "will" caugh. some a little to jealous. im not asking for much. just for u guys not to be alone. cant u build a friendship around that. for me.

asstarscollide @ 2004-12-05T21:39:00

2004-12-06T02:43:54Z

no this is not going to happen again. why should i have to stay quiet. im not going to not this time. this is the way i want it. your not going to make me feel like the bad friend bc im not.

asstarscollide @ 2004-12-04T17:28:00

2004-12-04T22:33:04Z

yeah anberlin was so much fun with amber. it was her first show. there were stupid guys moshing at anberlin seriously who does that. idiots. so i kicked one of them in the nuts and he was in pain and just shook his finger at me. it was so funny. shane was like a body guard. the kick is such an awesome band. they impressed me so much. the singer was so nice. anberlin was awesome too. but they didnt play very many songs.

im glad amber had a good time.

yeah it still bothers me. i wish they would respect that.

its Anberlin hunny

2004-12-03T21:59:21Z

Woop Anberlin tonight. im excited. i couldnt really enjoy the show last time because we were so late but it should be fun hanging out with Mike.

yesterday.... one of the worst day ever. but it figured that drama wasnt worth it so i moved on pretended like it never happened..

Anberlin heck ya.

asstarscollide @ 2004-12-01T20:50:00

2004-12-02T02:05:31Z

well...

todays national AIDS awareness day.

justin and i won a cruise to the bahamas. its prob a scam. losers. my parents bought me a membership to the gym for some odd reason. yea like ill ever use it. maybe just for the yoga classes and pilates. if anyone wants to go with me sometime i can bring someone

happy one year and a month to me and Justin.

justin a year ago Justin now
HA HES GOING TO KILL ME. LOL EH HES A BUTT HEAD

asstarscollide @ 2004-11-28T21:33:00

2004-11-29T02:33:59Z

someone please go to Anberlin with me?

asstarscollide @ 2004-11-28T18:31:00

2004-11-28T23:37:00Z

so thanksgiving weekend wasent the greatest. i can never seem to please anyone. shopping with amber and kim was fun. i miss hanging out with kim so much.

i talked to him about things i wasent happy with. i hope i see changes.

his eyes make me melt.

and you .... well you make me want to dance.

asstarscollide @ 2004-11-24T20:37:00

2004-11-25T01:40:22Z

man i just screwed myself. i should have never yelled at my mom. i couldnt help myself. she was driving me so crazy. i snapped. now im stuck here. what do i do know. i tryed to ask her if she needed help and she blew me off. all i can do now is pray.

asstarscollide @ 2004-11-22T20:55:00

2004-11-23T02:10:21Z

i had a pretty bad stinkin day today. my teacher wouldnt take my homework and im disappointed in my grades. i have a c and a low B. i suck. then he doesnt want to hang out with me. what is that about. i go visit him at work and he doesnt want to at least accompany me to the mall. that hurts. im really moody right now.

i miss all the little things he would do for me. like play me to sleep and leave me messages on my phone. i like little things. i need little things to make me feel special.

hm... Dr. Veronica DeJesus..... VEronica DeJesus M.D....... Dr. Veronica Powell possibly? who knows?

Mike it was nice talking to you buddy we should bump into eachother some time

we live and we learn and we crash and we burn